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New York

vjIf I’m dumb enough, I’ll go west. If you’re smart enough, you should know why I’m heading east.

All the arrows point east. So I’m following it. KO’d by the inspiring lights and over flowing dreams of New York City. Makes me feel brand new. Everyone’s eyes are on you, waiting for you to move. Today’s the day I move, watch me sway slowly so you can see clearly. Oh, I almost forgot, here’s a map of the big apple just in case you want to follow me. Stars and movies and note to harlem: awesome. Toast to Mr. Frank Sinatra - It had to be you. An asset to the city. Yours truly.

Now give me a reason to travel west.

eldritch pandemonium

Unearthly, extraterrestrial noises make me hang loose. Once discerned, at that point, I zone out and dematerialize from this planet.

California

Across the room, you sit. everything is awkward.
I pretend not to notice you. but I do.
I travel from town to town just to see you. oh, its so worth it.
You avoid me. you know when to stop.
I avoid you. I’m such a bad actor, stuck with a shitty script.
I hear your voice. speechless.
Please don’t talk to me. its for the best.
Don’t take it too personal. you don’t know a thing.
It happens and it happened. unrequited love.
I guess you should hate me I’ve been wearing a mask around you.
Matter of fact, its a good thing. would’ve been a disaster if I wasn’t.
Someday you’ll know…by that time I’ll be in California.

sunsets are magnificent.

fluctuate


I know the last page so well, I can’t read the first. So i just don’t start.
Of course I’ll be alright…I just had a bad night.

I am weak-willed.

I am unforgivable. I am lazy. I am insecure. I am crazy. I am complicated. I am repetitive. I am a distraction. I am competitive.

I am weak. I am dumb. I am a liar. I am numb. I am a screw-up. I am sure. I am a floor sweeper. I am no cure.

I am ignorant. I am imaginative. I am selfish. I am insensitive. I am secretive. I am my own therapist. I am vague. I am an escapist.

I am indecisive. I am awkward. I am self-indulgent. I am a bastard. I am confused. I am writing. I am free. I am fighting.

I am my own worst enemy. I am a nightmare. I am your mind’s invention. I am your own disaster. I am in a jar. I am a firefly. I am burning out. I am ready to cry.