Archive for August 2009

eldritch pandemonium

Unearthly, extraterrestrial noises make me hang loose. Once discerned, at that point, I zone out and dematerialize from this planet.

California

Across the room, you sit. everything is awkward.
I pretend not to notice you. but I do.
I travel from town to town just to see you. oh, its so worth it.
You avoid me. you know when to stop.
I avoid you. I’m such a bad actor, stuck with a shitty script.
I hear your voice. speechless.
Please don’t talk to me. its for the best.
Don’t take it too personal. you don’t know a thing.
It happens and it happened. unrequited love.
I guess you should hate me I’ve been wearing a mask around you.
Matter of fact, its a good thing. would’ve been a disaster if I wasn’t.
Someday you’ll know…by that time I’ll be in California.

sunsets are magnificent.

fluctuate


I know the last page so well, I can’t read the first. So i just don’t start.
Of course I’ll be alright…I just had a bad night.

I am weak-willed.

I am unforgivable. I am lazy. I am insecure. I am crazy. I am complicated. I am repetitive. I am a distraction. I am competitive.

I am weak. I am dumb. I am a liar. I am numb. I am a screw-up. I am sure. I am a floor sweeper. I am no cure.

I am ignorant. I am imaginative. I am selfish. I am insensitive. I am secretive. I am my own therapist. I am vague. I am an escapist.

I am indecisive. I am awkward. I am self-indulgent. I am a bastard. I am confused. I am writing. I am free. I am fighting.

I am my own worst enemy. I am a nightmare. I am your mind’s invention. I am your own disaster. I am in a jar. I am a firefly. I am burning out. I am ready to cry.



ukulele

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I am learning the ukulele! A month left of summer, with still a lot of hope on being productive. Anyway, I think thus far, my 2009 summer is sublime.

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